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Thoughts on the Bachelor This Week

 Are you ready for another installation of my thoughts while I watch the Bachelor? I know you all have been just hanging on the edge of your seats waiting for this.

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  • Lauren Bs date was adorable. Seeing men with kids is adorable. I may have teared up a bit when he consoled that little boy who was crying on the sidelines.
  • Also Lauren and Ben looked like a real couple. So sweet in their little leather jackets.
  • I would have LOVED that baseball date. How much fun? I would fall hard and fast if I was on that date. No reservations. Put me in Coach.
  • When he sent Becca and Caila back to the house during the group date was so awkward. “Amanda and I have a date to continue.” You could just tell the other two were just fuming.
  • Tom was skeptical about the size of Warsaw and its small townness. So we had to look it up. It’s close to big cities, but not close enough that I would consider it a suburb. (And yes Tom watches this show with me!)
  • Oh Emily. She just couldn’t stop talking with Ben’s parents. You could tell they were trying to be nice but were a little annoyed by her. Ben’s mom trying to describe her nicely was priceless. I would agree with Ben’s mom that she is not quite mature enough for this process. She still has so many things she wants to accomplish for herself, as she should! She seems like a really nice gal and she is funny. I do think her and her sister may make an appearance in the future in other Bachelor Franchise things. I mean how could they not try to drum up more stuff with the twins possibly on Bachelor in Paradise?
  • Ok so I love that the women are all consoling each other when Emily was sent home, but they have to be excited at the same time.
  • “Thanks for coming back to my hometown. I will always remember this courtyard as the place I broke one of your hearts.” is what Ben should have said at the beginning of the rose ceremony.
  • I am thinking Lauren and JoJo for the final two. I think that Caila is going to get in her own way, and I think that Ben will be overwhelmed by the thought of being a dad to two small children for Amanda.
  • I wrote this note before Becca got jilted. “I have some suspicions if Becca doesn’t get the final final rose, she may be up for being the next Bachelorette.” #beccaforbachelorette Tom hates her and thinks she is an attention seeker, but I like her and think she is sweet. And has a killer fashion sense!

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Did you watch the 20th celebration?

  • Chris Soules was so awkward. You can definitely tell that he is trying to get as much screen time as possible. Enough already. I feel like he is overstaying his welcome.
  • So many babies that are coming! Pomegranate Ashley is getting married and almost ready to pop! She seems a lot more down to earth when the show isn’t in play.
  • I love Tanner and Jade, even more so because they live in KC!
  • It was really interesting to see some Bachelor favorites and not so favorites for this event.
  • I didn’t realize so many people wrote books over their experience. I need them all!
  • I started watching during Trista’s season, so I love anytime Trista and Ryan come on the show. Obviously this can work for some folks (Team Sean + Catherine over here!), but the track record still isn’t that hot guys.

Who are you hoping are the final two?

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Thoughts of a Parent With a Sick Kid

George has been really sick the past couple weeks. I blame it on the teething, but then it turned ugly when he also got RSV (which is a respiratory infection).

We have had a couple rough nights where George won’t stop screaming, which is really not like him at all. When this kid can’t be consoled by being held, you know there is an issue.

These are just some of my thoughts on one of the nights that he thought it was a good idea to be awake from 12am-5am.

12am-*Hear George crying across the hall* Does he know this is not appropriate? How did I stay up at this hour in college?

*Tom attempts to get him to sleep, but all George does is scream.*

1am- Ok this kid has some pipes.

1:12- Have you tried milk? (talking to Tom)

1:32- Have you tried milk? (talking to Tom, and clearly I am half asleep because I don’t remember what you told me before.)

1:42- Seriously you tried milk and it didn’t work? Hmm…that normally works.

2:05- Ok let me try and hold him…

2:10- I have to pee, and he is falling right asleep right on my bladder.

2:12- Ok seriously I may wet my pants. I can totally put him back in the crib, he has been asleep for like 10 minutes right?

2:13-Successfully put him in the crib. High five self!

2:15- Well George does not feel that it is appropriate for me to relive my bladder. How can he still be crying?

2:16- Whew Tom got him. Thank God he is home tonight. Only 3 more hours of sleep time.

2:30- Why are you [Tom] bringing him into the bed?!?! He thinks we are jungle gyms!! He won’t sleep in here.

2:40- What did I tell you!?! That is a baby hand slapping my face.

3am- Ok really just 2 more hours. That’s a solid nap.

3:20- Let me try again.

3:23- Let’s bring him into the bed. (I get that I just yelled at you an hour ago, but I am desperate.)

3:45- Sweet! He has slept for the last 30 minutes on my chest. My arm is asleep though so maybe I can move him now. Please Lord let me move him without him waking up.

3:47- Why are you [George] awake again and staring at me like that!?!?! This is terrifying. Yes, TOM I WOULD LIKE YOU TO TAKE HIM.

4:15- WHY ARE YOU STILL CRYING? How is it possibly for you to cry this long?

5:15- BEEP BEEP. What the hell. BEEP BEEP. Why can’t I turn that stupid alarm off? Tom’s not in the bed, where is he? *Look at baby monitor* No baby in crib. Someone kidnapped Tom and George!!!! Oh what is that? They are asleep on the floor. George is asleep on the floor! Bless that man. How did I get so lucky? Am I crying?

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5:20- *Dogs start barking.* Shut your mouths! (said through clenched teeth)

5:23- Maybe he will sleep long enough so I can shower and get ready for work.

5:25- Ok I should stop starring at my sweet boys on the monitor, and get in that shower!

5:35- Did I use the shampoo or body wash on my hair? Better wash it again to make sure I am clean.

5:45- Shower is done, and he isn’t crying. Yes. Yes. Yes.

6:10- *Dogs bark at nothing.* What are you [dogs] doing!?

6:11- Awesome. George is crying. Tom is a zombie. This is my life today I guess.

6:13- *Give George a bottle.* This is what silence is like. I told Tom that milk would help.

6:20- George, you have got to be out of tears? What is happening?

6:23- Trying to put makeup on while George is in the Tula is not easy., but God bless wearing babies. #wearallthebabies

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6:40- Ok he is burning up. Where is that thermometer?

6:45- Crap. It says 101. So how does this work to stay home with a sick kid?

7:00- Call work and baby sitter about sick day. Cancel all appointments. Darn it, those students were not easy to get in the first time, hopefully they will be on it to reschedule.

7:30- He will only fall asleep in the Tula. This is going to be a good day. Lord help us.

7:45am- How does he sweat this much? I look and feel like I just got in the shower fully clothed, but instead of feeling clean I am covered in baby snot and saliva.

And all that on repeat until we can finally get George to successfully nap for more than a half hour.

It’s been really fun around our house. We had to take George to Urgent Care last week because he had almost a 103 temp. There we found out that he had an ear infection (which he did not show any particular signs of besides screaming his head off), and he picked up RSV somewhere. So he is on antibiotics plus we have to do a breathing treatment several times a day. Poor guy was miserable. He is just now getting back to himself a week later. He has never had a fever like that, and it totally wiped him out.

And it wiped us as parents out as well. Luckily, we have been a good team and will tag team trying to make George feel better. I love George, however, it was exhausting to have him inconsolable and screaming for 5 hours in the middle of the night. Maybe 30 minutes here and there, he did not stop crying. I don’t care who you are, that is tiring for anyone.And we felt utterly helpless. It also made me realize how far we have come from the newborn days. I honestly don’t know how we didn’t sleep through the night for months on end.

This sickness though has made him extra cuddly. He is handing hugs out like he is Oprah on her Favorite Things show. You get a hug, you get a hug, and YOU get a hug. Except it’s just me all day, YES. For a kid who has avoided any affection, these snotty hugs are making me feel better about only getting 2 hours of sleep.

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Talks with Tom #41

How have I not done a TWT since October? Oh yea, because I forget to write down the nuggets from conversation thinking I will remember them.

I never learn.

Anyway, here are a few Tom sayings since I have kept you waiting for 4 months.

Tom is a sweet talker. He knows how to work a room. But a lot of people mistake it with flirting, which I make fun of him for all the time.

Me-You flirt with everything.

Tom-No, I just talk.

Me-No, It’s flirting.

Tom-It’s not my fault that everything that comes out of my mouth is as smooth as cream cheese.

We plan out designs for a remodel all the time. Some day we will have a gym, and Tom has lots of plans.

Tom-When we have our own gym, I’m going to put a hammock in there. That way if I get tired during a workout, I can lie down.

Me-Because our bed in the same house will be to far?

I don’t remember how this sentence came up, but it is quote worthy.

Tom-My new superhero name is the Incredible Bulk. “Don’t make me hangry. You wouldn’t like me when I’m hangry.”

I have some goodies to share from his summary of some police interactions, so hopefully it won’t be four months before the next airing.

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This is sometimes how I feel with my husband…

Does your significant other keep you laughing everyday?

 

 

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He Has My Heart

 It was two years ago today that we heard George’s heart beat for the first time.

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Two whole years since we found out we were going to be parents.

As I laid there in tears on that cold table in our fertility doctor’s office, I was overwhelmed with the possibilities but yet I was finally at peace after trying so long.

So much has changed since that day that it is hard to believe it has only been two years.  It was such a turning point in our lives.

We are no longer in the Army. We have moved two times. We both have new jobs. We bought a house.

And George…

Well, George is answered prayers.

That was such a low time in our lives, and hearing that heartbeat was hearing God say, “I am here. Have faith. I have plans for you.”

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Every day I am so grateful that God chose me to be George’s mom.

We have learned countless lessons over the past 2 years. We are different people because of that little guy.

I still remember being scared and anxious waiting to be pregnant. The trials of having wacked out hormones that made the process more difficult than I could ever have imagined on top of having to time out everything with the Army’s schedule. I remember mourning every month my period arrived or when others announced their own pregnancies. There was one particular night I remember being paralyzed on the stairs, trying to pull myself together and get the ugly cry off my face before I told Tom that once again our “efforts” didn’t work. I remember trying to be strong when I had lost hope and felt weak.

Then two years ago, the news came out of no where. And George has been keeping us guessing ever since.

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I knew I wanted to be a mom my whole life, to the point in the years that we were trying, my heart physically ached for the opportunity. It is still hard for me to open up about the emotions I went through, even to my husband. Blaming my body for not doing what it was supposed to do naturally.  Guilt over being upset about someone else’s pregnancy. Defeated when having to answer the question over and over again of when we planned on having kids and having to shrug off that we had “failed” once more. Embarrassed because we were never open about the fact that we had been trying for so long. Not wanting people to know that we were trying because then I would feel even more pressure, so I felt that I was living someone else’s life when I said “we were waiting to have kids.” Shame and loss day in and day out. I will never forget the crippling sadness.

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Those feelings are part of me and our journey. This journey brought me closer to my husband, and closer to God. I prayed every day for strength and learned how to trust Him like I never had before. This time taught me how to lean on God and live through the uncertainty. As rough as that time was, I am able to cherish the journey because I believe because of it I am closer to George. I want to do right by him because of the struggle we went through to get here.

Every day I feel blessed that God had George in our plans. My heart swells even more since he is now here. That waiting was God preparing my  heart to grow exponentially for this person we were creating. He is the gift I knew I wanted, but never could understand the greatness until he was delivered. Being a mom opened up emotions that I can’t even put into words. I believe that the pain that it took to get here makes feelings of bliss and cheer wash over me like a tidal wave now that I am his mom. Sometimes I sit here and cry watching him with pure joy that he is really ours. What a gift we were given, and every day my heart explodes with pride and love over being a witness to this little boy’s life. Ending up with this family was worth everything we went through.

So on this Valentine’s Day, I do celebrate love. I celebrate love because two years ago, God gave me such a big reason to love with all that I am.

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Two years ago, George stole my heart when I heard his.

And I gladly give it to him again and again.

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Bachelor Thoughts of the Week

Here is what I thought about this week’s episode.

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  • I am torn on the Olivia issue. On one hand I do get her perspective that she isn’t there to make friends. She is there for Ben. But on the other hand, it does make you wonder how she is with people in real social settings.
  • Leah’s meltdown.Really? No words.
  • This week makes me want to go back to the Caribbean so bad.
  • I am so confused by Caila’s one on one. There has to be a lot they didn’t show.
  • Tom thought we should have them fight sharks to see if they are really committed.
  • SWIMMING PIGS!!! This is the best date ever.
  • Becca is my favorite this week. She is just real and honest.
  • Leah back talking Lauren B. is just sad and pathetic. Where did that come from? Why is she surprised she is going home? She is lying to everyone. Karma sister friend.
  • So Olivia is the first to say “I love you” if we don’t count the Spanish lesson. And then she was crushed….Watching her face go from elated to heartbroken is what this show is made of. I really feel for her though. She just looks devastated, and then to make her watch Emily get the rose. I mean they just left her to just stand there staring at the ocean….

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  • I liked Lauren H, but I think there were obvious other people for him. Maybe she will be on Paradise.
  • Hopefully Lauren B. can clear the air here soon. I really enjoy her.
  • Ok did anyone else catch that Emily said she just met Ben’s parents. So does that mean she is one of the final two? Isn’t that usually how meeting the Bachelor’s parents goes? She was not who I thought would be in the final two.

My picks after this week are Becca and JoJo in the final two, with Caila and Lauren next.

Do you watch the show? What are your thoughts?